Today marked the 8th year of my marriage. I have lost count with the number of fights we had during the past one year. But we fought almost every other week, small arguments & huge fights. I seriously understand if the neighbor hates us. Lol. I think it's a tough period for everyone because it was also Chanel's first year. I guess we are all tired and irritable, it seems that we can explode over the slightest matter. But I believe all families gone through the same tough times with a newborn.
On the appearance, we looked like a happy & perfect family. Actually we are a happy family, but what you actually don't see is what's going on behind the closed doors on a daily basis. What you don't see is the struggles we had with our screaming and inconsolable kid, what you don't see is how we still have to keep up our game when we reached home from work feeling absolutely shagged. What you don't see is how we flew into an ugly rage to discipline our kid. What you don't see is how our Saturdays and Sundays are just like Monday to Friday. To us, everyday is the same. There is no such thing as Weekend.
Actually what you don't see are what you aren't supposed to see. You'll never see me posting any of our ugly episodes at home on social media anyways. I'm just not the kind who post emotional and attention-grabbing statuses online all the time. (IKR, I only post photos of my children and my selfies, lol) And not like any of my audience would give a real damn.
So what is being 8 years together like?
I am an idealist. And a hopeless one. I would plan things in my mind in advance and expect it to happen exactly the way I wanted it. If it didn't, I will become irritable and thinks the whole world owes me an explanation. For example, even after 8 years of marriage, I would expect my husband to treat me exactly the way when we are still in our courtship 7 years ago. I know this is a tall order for some man and he's probably one of them(he's a practical man), who would think I'm super 'bo liao' or would even 'LOL' and give me the 'Are you fucking serious' or 'Wake up your idea' kind of stare. But, this is how an Idealist is (if you have no idea). And I'm just naming one of the example. A lot of man stopped doing the things they used to do during the courtship period after being married for many years.
I know setting such expectations can be quite unrealistic and demanding since we have so many on our plate now. But I just want to live the princess dream, can't I?
On the appearance, we looked like a happy & perfect family. Actually we are a happy family, but what you actually don't see is what's going on behind the closed doors on a daily basis. What you don't see is the struggles we had with our screaming and inconsolable kid, what you don't see is how we still have to keep up our game when we reached home from work feeling absolutely shagged. What you don't see is how we flew into an ugly rage to discipline our kid. What you don't see is how our Saturdays and Sundays are just like Monday to Friday. To us, everyday is the same. There is no such thing as Weekend.
Actually what you don't see are what you aren't supposed to see. You'll never see me posting any of our ugly episodes at home on social media anyways. I'm just not the kind who post emotional and attention-grabbing statuses online all the time. (IKR, I only post photos of my children and my selfies, lol) And not like any of my audience would give a real damn.
So what is being 8 years together like?
I am an idealist. And a hopeless one. I would plan things in my mind in advance and expect it to happen exactly the way I wanted it. If it didn't, I will become irritable and thinks the whole world owes me an explanation. For example, even after 8 years of marriage, I would expect my husband to treat me exactly the way when we are still in our courtship 7 years ago. I know this is a tall order for some man and he's probably one of them(he's a practical man), who would think I'm super 'bo liao' or would even 'LOL' and give me the 'Are you fucking serious' or 'Wake up your idea' kind of stare. But, this is how an Idealist is (if you have no idea). And I'm just naming one of the example. A lot of man stopped doing the things they used to do during the courtship period after being married for many years.
I know setting such expectations can be quite unrealistic and demanding since we have so many on our plate now. But I just want to live the princess dream, can't I?
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